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Hello dear family, friends, colleagues, pets, doctors, hair stylists, therapists, stalkers, baristas, & dude that cut me off at the light.

Thank you for all of your concerns. I appreciate the numerous messages and well wishes & I sincerely apologize that I have not been responsive and communicative. I really want to reach out and reconnect with every single one of you reading this – I genuinely miss all of you so much, especially those I haven’t seen in several years, but I just ask for a little bit of time. Your patience and understanding during my on-going recovery is very appreciated.

I have had many major life changes over the last few years (really the last few decade lol) and I want to share everything with you all. And I mean that quite literally, I want to be an open book, not only for y’all to just see and understand what’s going on in my head, but also to help open the conversation and destigmatize the difficult things I have been struggling with. Mental health is just as important (if not MORE) than physical health and I have decades of struggles I am only just starting to process myself. I want to openly share everything – just in my way, on my schedule, and with my own voice.

There’s quite a few of y’all who I want to keep up to date on everything, but I barely have the energy to talk to my parents & brother most days, let alone everyone else. I’m steering clear of social media for the time being for my mental health so I don’t really have any good outlets to post anymore (Instagram was my go-to but I get anxiety even opening the app right now… plus not even everybody used Instagram so what was the point).

Plus I know most everybody loves playing telephone and if I tell one friend/relative/coworker/etc. something, it will inevitably make its way to everybody else and then two problems arise – (1) people get upset/worried/all of the other emotions I can’t remember right now that I didn’t tell them directly and/or (2) what I said gets entirely misconstrued and that’s how all of the fun and exciting FALSE rumors get started. I am already a very entertaining, colorful, weird, complicated, interesting person to begin with – let’s not create any extra fake plot lines, thanksssss

For a while (especially towards the end of my time in NH) I stopped caring and just decided that giving everybody the most anxiety and concern about me as possible was the way to go… Because I truly just didn’t (and still don’t really) have the energy/capacity to care. People can think what they want about me, regardless if it’s the truth or not. But that’s also a great way to create drama, further social isolation, and all of the fun accompanying anxiety I really don’t need in my life anymore.

ANYWAYS. CHRIST. all of that ^ just to say that going forward, I will be posting updates about my life on this blog – and only this blog. This is your one and only primary resource for the biography of my life. And I only know how to be as openly honest about myself as possible so here we go…

Note: for the most part, what I post will be public and accessible to anyone concerned, but some posts may be password protected and all I ask is that these are not publicly shared.

Thank you ❤