every day I realize more and more just how screwed up my brain is lol

my parents took me out to dinner last night and I completely shut down and was in panic mode the entire time because I was so overwhelmed by being in public around so many people, all of the lights and noise (the kids screaming behind me lol), and then the menu itself was like a billion different options and I got too overwhelmed even looking at the menu that I just ordered one of the first things I saw on the menu (eggs & toast) instead of any of the actually exciting, good-sounding foods (I 100% regret not ordering the American Hot Dog Fried Rice but oh well).

I don’t 100% know why my brain/body overreacts like this when I’m in public right now, but I hate it. but I also hate sitting at home all day. but people and excitement are scary… I have no idea where to go to get out of the house that doesn’t stress me out right now it’s sucks but it is what it is I guess lol