meganlohmania
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life update
hi, sooo I had another seizure earlier this week lol I’m fine, just very tired and out of it (I have about enough energy to keep myself awake maybe ~10-12hr a day to sit in bed and rewatch the same 5 tv shows I’ve seen a million times already) my parents witnessed it so now… Read more
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woes of a new epileptic
I met with my neurologist this morning to discuss the best course of action going forward seeing as I am continuing to have seizures, even after removing 95% of the stress and distraught in my life 🙂 🙂 For now, we are just increasing the dose of my meds and then will regroup again in… Read more
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promoting the gay agenda since 1998
I found these scrapbook pages my mom made back in 1998 and I can’t stop laughing because surprise, I am in fact a colorful, rainbow-loving homosexual (bisexual? pansexual? whatever means “I don’t really care, I like a person for who they are as a person” lol) Read more
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the BM times
I’m not working at all (gasp!), I’m not in school anymore, the only standing commitments I have are doctors’ appointments and therapy – so what could I possibly be doing with all of this free time on my hands? honestly, I just bounce between a few main activities: reading, consuming (shows & movies), therapy, creating… Read more
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sigh
the last 56 hours have been not fabulous lol woke up face down in the running shower after an unexpected seizure then spent my entire Monday at the ER I’m slowly coming to the realization that I am going to be stuck dealing with these seizures for the rest of my life. my independence, my… Read more
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seizures back in action 🫨
hi friends & family, I had a very eventful Monday! so this morning I woke up face down in the shower w/ the bathroom flooding because I had another seizure, hooray! first and foremost, yes, I am okay! I am back home in bed with Emmy as I am typing this. but I did spend… Read more
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thoughts on therapy so far
I still don’t know how I feel about group therapy… it has it’s pros and cons, but the biggest red flags for me are 1) I suck at verbally processing things 2) interacting with strangers = scary and 3) attempting to verbally process things WITH STRANGERS??? TERRIFYING. I decided to continue with it for another… Read more
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every day I realize more and more just how screwed up my brain is lol my parents took me out to dinner last night and I completely shut down and was in panic mode the entire time because I was so overwhelmed by being in public around so many people, all of the lights and… Read more
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new therapy tomorrow
I start a new form of therapy tomorrow, an intensive outpatient program (IOP), hip hip hooray, everybody cheer! Basically I will be doing (virtual) group therapy sessions several days a week + weekly individual therapy sessions (totaling about ~12hr a week) I’ve only ever done individual therapy sessions (and definitely not on a weekly basis… Read more
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circa 1999
as part of digitizing/organizing my life, back in 2024 I started putting together a massive photo gallery for my entire family. I’ve been organizing my my mom’s & my own Google/iCloud photo library, plus I’d ripped all of the tapes from my dad’s video camera (which takes forever, oh my god) but! I finally got… Read more
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3am thoughts and feelings
I stay awake at night remembering all of the friendships I’ve lost, trying to figure out how I fucked up all of them, where I went wrong, what I did that drove the other person away I hate that I am fucking terrified of getting even remotely close to anybody ever (just the idea of… Read more
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my college experience – freshman year
four years spent at the University of North Texas that set the trajectory for the rest of my life (jk, no matter what college I went to I think I still would have ended up doing taxes, just with a lot less green shirts) I started my freshman year in August 2015 (god, how is… Read more
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figaro update
he’s very smart and very sneaky… my bedroom door wasn’t latched all of the way so he invited himself in for the night to sit and watch us sleep (don’t tell Emmy) also can you tell I am slowly putting the pieces of my life back together, one box at a time? slowly but surely… Read more
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the origins of figaro
the story of Figaro… first let’s set the scene – ~11pm on Saturday, September 23, 2017. Denton, Texas. I had just parked my car in front of my apartment (a student living apartment complex I lived during my Junior year of college that I ended up moving out of because I had several incidents of… Read more
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emmy’s life
Emmy has been going to the office with me & my mom and she really loves sitting in the middle of the hallway where she can see down both hallways and into my office (and in front of the fan, of course) Read more
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anonymity
I plan to keep this blog semi-anonymous primarily so I can keep it public and let myself share as openly as possible – but without this blog popping up if you google my name (which thankfully some CEO in Canada has easily taken care of, good luck easily finding a trace of me that isn’t… Read more
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my current reads
all of the various (digital) books I’m currently reading (whether it takes me two days or two decades to finish each of them lol) I just like having a bunch of different options to bounce between, okay!?? I am fully taking advantage of my time off as well as my current overlapping library memberships (New… Read more
