thoughts on therapy so far

I still don’t know how I feel about group therapy… it has it’s pros and cons, but the biggest red flags for me are 1) I suck at verbally processing things 2) interacting with strangers = scary and 3) attempting to verbally process things WITH STRANGERS??? TERRIFYING. I decided to continue with it for another couple of weeks before making a final decision of whether or not this is doing any help for me, but so far… no thank you lol

And like, I know I need to face my fears, but just considering all of the nuances of my own situation and where my brain is at right now, I think I am better off processing things a little differently…

I realized I have very few hesitations about openly sharing via this blog (primarily because I know only a few people will actually read it & it’s ~slightly~ anonymous & I can edit and perfect everything to my heart’s content). I am also very good at writing and visually processing things (I have about 100 various in-progress Canva projects that represent different parts of me + my ongoing project of scanning and organizing my entire life in photos and videos – both of which I have already been sharing here lol)

I’m doing this for the little girl below, for the woman she would become – both so I can know myself and so you all can know me. this is going to be fun 🙂